A Lot Has Happened Lately

        So its been a long time since I posted last and a lot has happened. I moved from the DC area to Utah up near Sundance in august. I’ve been going to USGA Understanding Same Sex Attraction an unofficial BYU group. It’s been amazing! They have very interesting and helpful meetings and socializing afterwards is great! its really nice to get together with other gay mormons.
As far as romance goes, I got into a long distance relationship with this one guy that I met through corinvictus (an online gay mormon support group), it was the first time that I was in love with someone where that love was expressed and reciprocated, love songs had so much more meaning and my life was full and beautiful. The relationship did not last, he was not very attracted to me physically. I am rather slender and while in great shape am lacking in big muscles. This made me not feel as great and then when he showed a lack of trust my feelings for him lessened considerably, when we finally got to meet in person he let it be known that he wanted to be just friends. So that was the end of that.
The next relationship that followed was much better and still holds promise. long story short, we connected really well and we jumped into a relationship pretty fast, extenuating circumstances kept us apart for a while, then later we were able to reunite. The only problem was he lived in the Salt Lake area and neither one of us have cars. I had been planning on moving to salt lake this month long before we started dating. So after a while being apart took its strain on the relationship, ultimately we decided to break of communication till I moved to SLC and then start all over again, this time more slowly. I feel that that is a really good idea, it was actually his idea.
My parents found out that my little younger brother supports gay marriage so we felt like it was time to tell him about me, I had my parents tell him. It went well, apparently he had already known, and the things he would say to me about not wearing or doing certain things cause they seemed gay was not him being homophobic but his way of clueing me in that I should not do those things so I would not be discriminated against.
My grandma on my mom’s side has been living with us, so over the christmas holidays I came out to her. It was one of the few times that I have come out to someone in person so I was a little nervous. But she took it well, she said that she had thought that I might be gay and that she wanted me to do whatever made me happy. So that was a great relief.
Months before all this I came out to a few of my cousins and they all were very supportive. Only one of them still believes what the church teaches on homosexuality but she is very loving and non judgmental of me or anyone for that matter. I have a great family!